Busy busy busy....  watch:

• Eat Breakfast... [CHECK]
• Clean house... [CHECK]
• Check out my xanga and drop some comments... [CHECK]
• Take a shower.... [uh...]
• Make a couple of phone calls... [where's my phone at?]
• Go do my taxes...[after I get ready...]
• Go to Henry's house....[uh, after the taxes]

As you can I see I got more to do today, so I'm off and out to... :::checking list::: take a shower! So, catch every1 laters! ~*PeaCe*~

FaNi :

deepdiver125 [11:38 PM]:  hey
MzLaly50 [11:39 PM]:  RiCaRdO
MzLaly50 [11:39 PM]:   
deepdiver125 [11:39 PM]:  hey whats up
MzLaly50 [11:39 PM]:  HeLLo
MzLaly50 [11:39 PM]:  nothing, just hungry here
deepdiver125 [11:39 PM]:  oh
MzLaly50 [11:39 PM]:  so munching on some white rice
deepdiver125 [11:39 PM]:  oh
deepdiver125 [11:39 PM]:  ok
MzLaly50 [11:39 PM]:  you?
deepdiver125 [11:40 PM]:  still with the bf
MzLaly50 [11:40 PM]:  lol
MzLaly50 [11:40 PM]:  yes RiCaRdO
deepdiver125 [11:40 PM]:  lol
deepdiver125 [11:40 PM]:  just asking
MzLaly50 [11:40 PM]:  still poking every girl possible?
MzLaly50 [11:40 PM]:  lol
MzLaly50 [11:40 PM]:  :-X
deepdiver125 [11:40 PM]:  yep
MzLaly50 [11:40 PM]:  awesome
deepdiver125 [11:41 PM]:  still need you and natalia
MzLaly50 [11:41 PM]:  lol
MzLaly50 [11:41 PM]:  ::closes legs hardcore::
deepdiver125 signed off at 11:46 PM      < LOL

 HaPpY VaLeNtiNe'S DaY!

Ok, so it's not Valentine's Day anymore... it's like 1:45 am and I had an awesome night with Abe :: sigh :: Jeez... nothing could'a went better other than him staying over, lol.  First of all, he sends me a msg so we can hang out later tonight. Pshh! HELL YEAH! He came over... and this is how it went. Door bell rings, just the way he always does it...  *ding-ding diiiiiiiiiing... ding* And I open the door and boom.... Abe holding a big ol' teddy bear the size of him, if not twice his size! lol. And then a lil arrangement of roses with this balloon attached to it. Aww... The Bear's like over 3 feet tall, with a big ass heart that says: "I love you beary much"... and then it has a lil red devil bear that says I love you on it's shoulder. ( \m/ yeah! lil devil ) and it was also holding a long stem red rose. It was so cute. He came in and told me the roses were for my mom, so we went into her room. Where she dropped her mouth in aw and started to cry... I was like  whoa... she's crying. Not only tears but like lil gasps of breaths when you cry. She was like really happy. Abe consoled her and to make her laugh he said: "Aww, you don't like them??" We all laughed. And I teared up to see my mom's reaction. You're such an awesome guy Abe! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! After all those gorgeous memories we went to Island's (my fav. burgers, mmm the toucan!! :: drools ::) Everything was good other than the waitress scratching her ass in front of us... and we left her good tip too: NEXT TIME DON'T SCRATCH YOUR ASS INFRONT OF CUSTOMERS! lmao! NO JOKE, Abe actually wrote that on the receipt. After that we went to go see "Hitch"... pretty good movie. I guess you can say perfect for the couples. You get to see both guy's and girl's perspective. Which was funny. I liked it. Lots of laughs, aw's, and ooh's. After that it was like 12:30 or so... so me and Abe headed home. We said our "long good bye's", to me not always long enough... I don't know about him, but yeah, for me... too short.  One of the most funniest things happened to. As soon as I pulled up to my driveway and parked my car, we turned on the radio and some song was ending, I don't even remember, but the thing is... Everlong by Foo Fighters starts to play. Oh man, was that weird. Those who don't know, that's like one of my fav. songs. Like "love memories" songs, u know. I got all gushy... and Abe noticed. I asked him to open the letter I wrote to him, and I pointed out why that song meant to me so much (in the letter I told him why). And it all made sense. Aww, dude it was the perfect night. And I smell like Candies cologne too. My teddy was splashed by a mess of it so I can sniff it all night, woo hoo! Damn, I should'a splashed the teddy I gave to him too. *snaps* Oh well... well ok, that's enough for me. I hope every1 had an awesome Valentine's like I did. Laters!

       HaPpY VaLeNtiNe'S DaY!       

 ". . . And I wonder if everything could ever feel this real  4ever. . ."

                                                                                           -Foo Fighters 

  How do I feel? "Shitty"

Have you ever felt like you're not wanted by someone? Like they don't love you as much as you love them. Or at least show the same amount of affection? And at the same time feel smothered by pity affection? I've been getting hit left to right with this sort of thing. It's like I got these mood swings and stuff. And I hate talking about it just b/c it sounds like I'm showing myself as a victim, when in reality it's something you have to let out. And your guilt bothers you sometimes. In fact, it bothers you a lot that you want to tell the person something but are at the same time scared to do so just b/c either they might take it wrong or they might take it like you're overreacting. So what do you do in situations like these? Blow it off and let time erase it? Or... confront it and hope for the best? Sometimes I feel as though I do overreact, but yea again, it's MY feelings... no one else's, and shit, that's just the way I feel. So how bout the guilt trip stuff? The "let me tell you this outta my mouth, before you hear it from someone else, or see it for yourself" thing. And hey... why do guys love coming back when you're not single anymore? Why do they want you all to themselves THEN? Or why do you feel like ALL of them return and the wrong time, and there's nothing you can do. Sometimes outta anger or frustation you wanna be alone. I can sit here and say that some of my worst times have been when I've been alone. Yea, I hate drama, but I'm sitting here and making some right now, and UGH, if I can kick my own ass I would. You see, for all of you who know me, I'm not single. And I honestly love my bf and all... but there's things that I'm scared of, things like letting lil things get to me. First of all, I hate when things get to me, for example:  I can't stand it when something happens and you feel bad, and they say "it's ok" when you see them acting differently towards you---so YOU KNOW it's not ok. DUDE! It's not ok! Look how you're acting differently. I also hate craving attention, and not getting it. Oh Man... do I hate that, that's just us as girls though. And guys say they know us well, but if they did then the would play along with us, b/c besides, THEY KNOW how we are. BS! lol. I also hate, someone not keeping their word. Like when they say they're gonna do something and NADA! Ahh God I hate that! Like it makes my right eye twitch - and dude! That's bad! lol. All this leads to me getting annoyed or frustated with people b/c of all this, in particular people you care about the most. And love the most. How do you tell someobe you love that lil things like this bother you to the core, and not offend them? And how do you confess certain things that are important, yet again might also hurt the person. I dunno, I hate being the person who hurts people, yet again I'm very blunt and honest. Aghhhh and now I'm sleepy and honestly I'm craving attention, but certain people don't wanna talk to me I guess and simply forget to call. I'll get over it - I'm just venting. Sorry I have a vagina.

It'S.My.20Th.BiRtHdAy!!!

The Big 2 OH! How fast huh? Fahk! I remember when I was 12 thinking 20 was gonna be like really old, ayy guey!  And now I'm here, crap. Quickness Style. It's been good thus far, I got my favorite food made to me by my mommy , gracias Mami! I luv u! I got Fettucini Alfredo, with chicken and baked taters on the side! Damn... if that ain't fattening, I don't know what is! F it, it's mi cumpleaños! And Henry is treating me to dinner at BJ's, my favorite lil' italian restaurant, well my fav. pizza. Damn, the pasta is good though, damn carbs!  Let's see, I hope every1 who was invited can go.. so far on the invitation list is: Me & Henry (da burf day PpL), Naty, Merary, Miriam, Jackie, Jose, Mony and my luv Abe. So I hope we'll all go 2gether. If not, then it's ok, we'll spend time later, but I really hope they can. I still gotta clean my room. I've been messing with this computer all night and all morning trying to figure out what I did wrong to it, I even DLed some Spyware shit, and deleted all these infections I had in it, but along with it I must have deleted a mess of files! AGH!  Well ok, I'll be back later, it's like 3:15 and it's time for me to do my thing, so laters every1!

*Later on that night*

Bout 12am... just got back from the dinner. And I feel like a: FATASS!

OK.. see here are a couple of the pics from 2night: ENJOY!

Still there waiting for food. Mony? Where is she?. ayy Mony, u're with D...

Me wayyyy in da middle in GREEEEN, yay!

And the best for last!

    Mony & Me

  Abe & Me 

 OK... I've had such shitty days lately. And I've been hit with reality checks from left to right. To start I got fired this Monday from that medical billing place for those of you who didn't know... at pricisely 2:30p.m... meaning my ass went into work and work almost full day, then got fired... bullshit (not the good one either). I was gonna quit, but that was 'til I got my Life Agent license... which to me meant like 3 weeks to a Month. So now, I gotta work 10 times as hard to get it and pick up my pace in succeeding in my other business. But whatever getting fired was supposed to be a favor to me not too long ago, now it's like FUCK U BRIAN! U PIECE OF SHIT! no wait... at least a piece of shit is worth something, like to fertilize plants and junk, you're just a nothing... you, you, you.... WORTHLESS piece of shit! AGH! We clashed recently and you never saw how much I helped every1... your an ass. Then after I had all these things on my mind as it was. And I REALLY had to head to my spot at the beach at night. Just to mellow out and let the breeze chill me up and the ocean waves relax my mind, cuz I was fucking tense, I mean real tense, that my luv had to hold me so I can just let it all out.  And I did, and to be honest it helped. But hold on, I'm not done... I didn't mention on my way to the beach I got a speeding ticket and leaving the beach I somehow bang my head on the trunk of my car and cut my self open and bleed, GREAT! AGH!!!! Everything was going wrong , but to tell ya the truth about that ticket, I'm surprised it took me a year to finally get one. Cuz every1 who knows me knows I'm not a slow driver , and that I drive lots of miles on my car. I got the car parked outside to prove it, leaking oil and the tranmission sounding not too well. Yea, I need a new car too.  And a new job while I get my license. Henry is an awesome homie, I might work here by my house b/c of him getting the same or more I was earning at the office in Encino. But yea.. it's hard. Cuz my parents depend on a part of my check to make it now and days. So, it's not for me that I'm worried about, it's my family I care about the most. My whole family is stability para acavarla de fregar! And only some of you understand that.

    We got this S.T.A.R system, it says that there's 4 diff type of people in this world, some have a mix of 2 or more... but this is basically how it works... you got "S" which stands for stability... it's self explanitory, you're a stable person, always has money b/c of good planning and never overdraws their check book, they're also very organized people, and are picky and controlling. Then you got "T" which stands for Theory/Technical... those are the people that are into the technology... always carrying their labtops around w/them, always has a pen in handy, and is just good with machines, they also follow rules and methods as one should (I call them a  Mr. Fix It or Nerds, lol). Then you got "A", these people are the action people. Lol, I laugh b/c most people are "A's" now and days. Action people are always late to timely events, always have messy, disoriented house b/c they're in a rush, they love to drive fast (I think I fall in here somehow, lol), don't like long conversations, they are very competitive and are very straight to the point, just quick people overall. Then lastly, but certainly not least, is "R"... those are the relationship people, which is also self explanitory... they are very warm people who have long deep conversations, are close to their family and friends. I see the "Surburb Mom" falling into this one, lol. Well yea, that's the system, I'm a mix... but I'm mostly stability, I got a lot of the relationship in me, and a tad of action. So yea, like I was saying my whole family is stability, so when we're not stable, ah damn it's hard. But everything will come through si Dios quiere.

    So let's see what else? I gotta go handle my auto insurance I was gonna go complain about this increase in premium they sent me like 2 mo's ago... but now can I? I got a ticket just 2 days ago, so they can't say it was b/c of that, b/c I just got that shit! lol. And I need to find a new car as well... and that job, I gotta go work on my resume, then I gotta go to Susy's house from now and study everyday, so that maybe by next week I can be ready to re-take that test. I also gotta set up more appt's with some people. So yea, I guess I'm busy... maybe not having a job is to my advantage right now... or is it???? lol. Well ok, gots to go, I'm hungry too.

So I'm out! L8rS ERrRr-Body!